This is a blog full of my feelings that I couldn't post on my main, due to the people I know following me. It'll also contain some reblogs. I don't expect many people to come across this page, but hello if you do! You might not like my posts here, but thanks for viewing anyway.
est: 09/14/11


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It’s been so long that I’ve forgotten how to talk to you. It’s sad. I miss you so much, but I don’t know what to say…

I hate everything about me right now. Everything.

I hate my life right now. I want to be as happy as I used to be.

My mom’s fucking bugging out for no reason..

I was lying down and eating and then all of sudden she blows up on me and then brings up all my past mistakes. It’s not even fucking relevant. I was using my laptop and lying down on the couch. I had my camera next to me because I was uploading pictures. She sees me and she starts fucking screaming at me for eating and then she goes upstairs. She comes back down still fucking ranting and she grabs at her wallet and my camera falls. And then she starts yelling at me that my camera fell. Shes saying things like why was your camera there? This is what you get. You’re a fucking slob bahbajblabhalbhalbhah. What the fuck!?!? I was just trying to upload some pictures and eat and my mom is fucking pmsing all over the place. She’s been yelling at me for like 5 minutes for the most irrelevant shit. Thank god she fucking left. I hope she doesn’t come back.

I feel so sad and lonely.

I wish I had someone to like.

I find that every time I’m on tumblr, I feel incredibly alone. I scroll through my depressing dash. I start to feel sorry for myself. I sit all alone writing all these negative things when I could be doing something else. This self-pity will one day destroy me.

People only continue to disappoint me. Why do i even try anymore?

Whats the point of friends? All of it is bullshit anyway.

I feel incredibly cheated.